What will the say about you?

So today we laid to rest a great family member. And she was sent home in style. What made it so wonderful was all the great things that people were able to say about her from her loving smile to her awesome cornbread.....
And it got me to thinking what will be said about me when i am gone. What will i be remembered for what is my legacy what is the mark that i have left on this earth... Lets see i know that i have these three great children but there has to be more i want it to be more and it needs to be more....
See i know the great things about me that makes me; me like my smile my laugh the way i can make others laugh i am caring and kind and willing to do for other will do for others before i do for myself.... But i have to wonder is there more.... There has to be more so again i say what will they say about you.... And not what you want them to say but what will they really say....


Question Of The Day: What is the mark that you are leaving on this earth? What is your legacy that you are leaving behind to be remembered for?


R.I.P Aunt Gina this is dedicated 2 you..... 


May your smile LIGHT THE WAY FOR OTHER.......

Feeling Da Need to Blog

Just feel like that i have something to say....


I do not know why i have this feeling in me tonight to have to blog but i just do. Maybe because i had such a very fun but interesting weekend OR maybe because i have some pondering questions that are in my head that just wont let me rest. That feeling of needing to just get it off your chest so that you can just move on.
However often times when i have something that i just need to get off my chest it ends up with me losing a friend or having some kind of major fall out with a family member... SMH!!!


But this is the reason why i did this blog... So now what????? 

 Always remember to LIVE FATAL & Love 1 Another.....

Off Track... But its OK!!

OFF MY GAME....
So i have been off my game in the last week or so I have been so busy with the kids and house and i have just been OFF TRACK.
So i know many are asking so what the hell have you been up to that you have just fell OFF TRACK? Well lets see after both the girls had their performances all on the same day. My oldest daughter had another performance at the 3rd Annual Southern Regional Battle of the Bands.

SN: And Garden City Panthers = GCP SHOWED UP AND SHOWED OUT Also want to give a special Shout out to Nicole Young who did her thing at the BOTB!!!!


Anyway back to why i have been so OFF TRACK. That morning was a 7am practice for more than an hour after that it was time to get ready do hair do nails and get my son a hair cut not to mention that i still need to get ready. After all that we got ready and head to the stadium and that was a all nite event and we all had a great time took my mother to her first battle of the bands she was so amazed... LOL!!!!
After the game i took the kids to Mc D's and that was pretty much a bad ending to the bad eat day because at the BOTB i had hamburgers and soda and i think 1 bottle of water....  Then Sunday i made a BIG Sunday Dinner with all the works and that is the beginning of the OFF TACK that i have been on all week.
I have not even worked out or went walking its a shame.... But that is OK when i started this journey it was about feeling better about me and being happy with me and not worring about others and what they think and feel. I am also starting to see why GOD had me to start this blog i have even inspired some people to want to start a blog or even join the journey with me and that is just cool with me....
Back to OFF TRACK.... So you may say well what are you going to do again to get back ON TRACK?
Well it is simple first i am going to enjoy the rest of this great week it started off a little bumpy but its BACK ON TRACK you know why because GOD HAS SAW FIT TO WAKE ME UP EVERYDAY THIS WEEK!!!!  And at the end of the week and the first day of the new week which will be Sunday the 26th i will be back in FULL EFFECT!!!!!

So stay tuned and lets see this journey unfold!!!!! Feel free to also post your journey or even your events for the day and lets talk....



Always remember to LIVE FATAL & Love 1 Another.....

Where you BEEN!!!!!

OK OK OK...... I know the question is WHERE THE HELL YOU BEEN....

I have been doing the mother thing for the past few days... It has been a total of 4 days that i have not posted and funny enough the last time that i posted was on day 4 so its safe to day that they number we are dealing with today is 4......
So have i stayed on track the answer to this is NO HELL NO.... And i am so sad about this because i was doing so well i had lost a few inches in my waist and had dropped a few inches as well. I was so happy because i put on a pair of pants the other day and they were falling off which is such a GREAT THING!!! And with all of the i just did like my pants and FELL OFF.... Oh but just like those GREAT PANTS that i LOVE SO MUCH i can take them in and THEY WILL BE JUST RIGHT and i will do just the same get JUST BACK RIGHT....
So i know that question will start soon how will you get back on TRACK and STAY FOCUSED...  Well i have a few ways to do this that i feel will WORK...
1. Bring my OWN Items to drink and eat at all games, practices, and performances
2. JUST say NO to all invites to go eat after all games, practices, and performances... And this one is a little sticky but if i stay firm and follow the plan i should be OK..
3. Make sure that i am getting ENOUGH SLEEP...
AND LAST
4. HAVE FULL FAITH IN GOD THAT I CAN DO THIS FOR MYSELF.....


So i am going to leave you with a SN 2 NITE: Why do we pay people to do things that we can do our self... Today i told a good friend to make an appointment for me to get my hair Flat Twisted and after i said this and got i thought about it WHY THE HELL AM I GOING TO PAY SOMEONE TO DO SOMETHING THAT I CAN DO MY DAMN SELF.... #imjustsayin

Remember to leave comments and ask questions

Always remember to LIVE FATAL & Love 1 Another.....

GCP Augusta Football Classic

This is my daughter at the Augusta Classic's sorry but i have not perfected my taping skills yet.... LOL & This is also day 4 and it started off good but ended ugly.....

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Day 3

ALL IS WELL!!!!

Today was a GOOD DAY..... Woke up late today because i went to bed way past my bed time. So once i was up and at it I did the I CAN GET RIGHT had a full glass of ice water and some sunflower seed and i know you are saying sunflower seeds is that part of the routine and the answer is YES sunflower seeds are a free you can have it anytime of the day and because there is no real fat content and all the other stuff that i cant have i can have up to as many as i want but i cant eat the whole bag in one seating LOL..... After I had that I took care of some school stuff and got Shantel's Dr.'s App. straight and before i knew it the kids where home. Talk to them about there day helped them do some HW and then you guessed it off to practice we went THANK GOD I only had to make to drop offs today and everyone was on time today.. I did walk i want to say a mile with Tiff and Eliana and then went and picked up the hubby.

For dinner it was a fat free yogurt and some ice cold water and some of this drink that i am supposed to drink that smells so funny and taste even worst but with every swallow i say just STAY FOCUSED!!!


The goal for tomorrow is to go to bed on time and to go walking early in the morning with Tiff

So all in all today was a GOOD DAY!!!!!


 Always remember to LIVE FATAL & Love 1 Another.....

Day 2

CANT GET RIGHT!!!!

This was the theme for the day. The day started good GOD woke me up however after that things just CANT GET RIGHT! Shantel woke up with the whole of her right eye on swol. So yes you guessed no school for her. Then spent the rest of the morning calling doctors offices trying to get her an appointment with no luck. So we old schooled it and got the swollen done and off to school we went.
Got the hubby off to work which is a another story for another blog...... LMAO!!! Got home just in time to see the soaps made lunch did good there a tuna sandwich and water and i was good and right in the middle of All My Children guess what...... Yes you guessed it Shantel called needing to be picked up from school.. The day went from there me up at the school a total of 4 times in one day.... Then HW for the kids and off to practice still focused drinking the water and not letting the little things get to me.....
But here it comes again CANT GET RIGHT!! Go get the hubby on time and it was just on from there late picking up Armon from Football, late picking up Shantel from practice and just when i think i am going to be on time i make a stop at Kroger's and of course late picking up Eliana all to get home and realize that i had not cooked the bake chicken so now i have nothing to eat for my second day and none of the kids stuff is done in the house and everyone is just playing around and that ladies and gents was the end of JUST CANT GET RIGHT!!! So for dinner today day 2 I had PANCAKES yes i said it and yes I am so disappointed with my self but we all fall down but we can all GET UP.... So tomorrow will be I AM RIGHT!!!

I will stay on task and focused on the true goal and that is me and my health and happiness




Always remember to LIVE FATAL & Love 1 Another.....

Day 1

Well here we go....

Today stared day one and it did not start off so good the plan was to get up with the kids have my tea and take my pills and go walking for at least 30 to 40 minutes. However mother nature had her own plans.... So i came up with a plan B I took half of a pill had a very small lunch simple some Chief Boyarde Spagitta and meatballs just eat the meatballs and 4 saltine crackers and my cyrstal light and I was pretty much full for the rest of the day. Went and saw Tiff and talked with her for a little while had to just get out of the house. Of course by the time i got home the kids were all home and we had to go right back out Eliana had to return some work to her teachers and she is my prefectionist so there was no telling her no. Stayed at the school for a while and talked to the teachers. Came home helped Armon with his homework and talked some more with the kids and then off to Eliana's interview while she did her intrview i did 3 half walks around the track and played a little Bball and felt good so i did not get th 30 or 40 in but i did do 20 so that is a good start baby steps is better than no steps at all.... Came home and had dinner a small salad and some more crystal light. And yes i am full...

Feeling sleep so after this entry i will do some homework and then off to sleep i go the bed time tonight is 1am.. I'll keep you posted

Always remember to LIVE FATAL.....

The Start of the 46 day Journey..

When i first started this blog it was something that GOD had placed on my heart. I was not sure what i was going to talk about or if people would even read it or care. But he said just write even it no one reads it you just write. So i started this blog some days i would have something to say and other days i would have nothing to say. But now i have a mission or i would say a journey. This journey has officially stated today. I have made it up in my mind and heart that i want a change. I love the person that i am but i don't like so much the person that i see when i look in the mirror. So it is time for me to find me. That person that i loved to see in the mirror looking back at me.

So the first thing that i am starting with is my weight. Don't get me wrong I LOVE BEING A BIG GIRL!!!!

But there is a smaller women inside crying to be free and i cant take it any more she must shut up and be free. So i have started my 46 day journey to a healthier happier me. I will make it my mission to blog on this journey and progress everyday and also talk about my day good bad or indifferent.

SO THEIR YOU HAVE IT THE INTRO OR BEGINNING OF THE NEW ME

It's been toooo long......

I know that its been a min but i'm back. Well i'll be back in a few days after my finals..... TTYL

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Family & Feelings

Today I had to deal with family and how they can hurt your feelings. So me and my cousin got into it today because she said something that really hurt my feelings. You know people think that it is to be a stay at home mother. And it is not easy at all its not for the faint at HEART. The funny thing is that the mothers that want to stay home and cant look down on you and the women that do not have kids look down on you because they feel like you have lost your independence or you have to depend on someone else to take care of you. And that is just not true. I was that mother the work-a-holic the mother that hardly got time to spend with her children, the mother that felt that as long as i was buying them things and paying the bills that's all they need and that is just not true. I was missing out on my kids whole life. They grow so fast and in a blink of an eye they are grown and on their own and you are seating around wondering were did the time go. There was a time in my children's life were i could not tell you what was their favorite color or what boy or girl they liked at school. Now things are so different i am able to tell you that 2 of them love the color blue and that the oldest likes some boy named Jacob..... That to me is cool, To me that is better then being able to go to the mall and by a Coach bag and Prada shoes. Family is funny to me because you are damn if you are handling your business without any help and damn if you are asking for help. I say walk a mile in my shoes do what i do all day every day and see how you would do. Can you stand the life that i live can you take care of someone other than your self. When you only have yourself to look after it makes the world look alot different think about that first before you judge or pass judgement on the next person.

Remember GOD gives certain people in life a special job because he knows that they are the right person for the JOB.... THIS IS NOT YOUR JOB AND THAT IS NOT MY FAULT!!!

A Mothers Intuition

Do you believe in a mothers intuition? When i was a little girl i never understood what my mother was talking about the feeling in the Pitt of your stomach that feeling that made the hairs on the back of her neck stand up. To me it was the Jamaican voodoo that made her so crazy. Oh but now i understand. That feeling of something just ain't right. When you tell people that they don't understand so i ask am i the only one that believes in that mothers intuition maybe its wisdom or just the hand of father time that makes you know what you know.

So today mothers i as asks do you believe in that thing called mothers intuition or is it just wisdom.

Up all nite...

Okay so I been up all day trying to fix my laptop after hours and hours.... Did I say hours I finally got it done. Now once again up late and no sleep really. Is it me or is it harder to sleep in the summer than in the winter?

Just My Thoughts

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